Defining Moments

JOURNAL OF HOPE: LETTERS TO DANIEL

BOOK 2: February 12, 2012- February 25, 2012



This is the second Journal of Hope, which I had written Danielle. My hope was that Danielle would realize how I waited for her to find her balance and return to me. I use to pray so hard that Danielle would just show up to my apartment and say “hello” The journals are in the raw format as I wrote them at the time.
February 18, 2012:

It is 3:05 am, and I find myself longing for you, Danielle. I know that it’s only been 21 days, however its feels like a life time. I miss talking to you. So much in my life has changed. There are days and moments I feel like giving up. I even told spirit at night please let me die in my sleep tonight. However each day I keep waking up and find myself missing you. Spirit will no longer listen to me. They want me to live. They keep saying that there is a family that needs me. What the hell are they talking about?

I have lost so many friends because they say that you are cheating on me and do not love me nor did you ever truly love me. I have disavowed those friends. Cause how dare they talk shit about you. How dare they stand up to me? I am the one that helped them. They just talk shit without sitting down and helping me understand.

I spoke with Jack and he said that I can’t give up and I said why.

Jack shook his head,

“I promised Danielle that I would watch out over you that night in the restaurant because she was worried about the drunken guests. I told

Her she will always come home to you. Do you remember what she

said?

I said to Jack

“No.”

Jack smiled

“Danielle said ‘Good, because she is my soul mate and we are forever together.’”

Jack reminded me that I cannot give up because I am the hope for other people. No one realized what I went through in life. And now when they find out they will be amazed at my strength.