Defining Moments

Tuesday February 7th, 2012:

Today is one week that we have been separated. While we are still friends it is deeply affecting me on all levels. I do not understand how it is however I know in my heart you will return. You must know that you have broken my heart. I have never felt this kind of pain before. It was something you said that you would never do. IT is more painful than all the torture that I have endured. At the end of the torture the pain stops momentarily. This pain I feel regarding you continues. YOU gave up on me. While I understand and will wait. WHY did you give up on me? I am off today and am going to drink because it is so painful. All this crying. All this doubting. What have you done to me? I was once strong. I endure nights of them electrocuting me, beating me, and yet you leaving me has done more damage than they could have ever hoped for. I know you said to me that you will be the one to give me new experiences. You taught me intimate things, you taught me, pizza. You showed me how to light a Christmas without being afraid of finding body parts. However this new experience of a broken heart is off the chart. I miss you and I don’t want you to give up on true love. I know what you told me about what others did to you. I won’t do that to you.