Defining Moments

ANOTHER LETTER
July has arrived and in just five days, I will turn 40. Feeling compelled to try and once again let go of my pain of Danielle.

Dearest Danielle,

Today is July 2, 2012. Strange times, Danielle. I’ll never truly know why you left the way you did. I’ll never know why you never told me in person that you were with your current girlfriend. I will never know why to this day why you won’t talk to me or deny that you ever loved me. That shall be left to the universe. You made think that I was nothing because your new girlfriend had family. I loved you like no other. You took vows with me yet denied me in front of your family. I forgive you. Most importantly, I forgive myself for allowing you to hurt me and giving you permission to hurt me.

In the process of the heart break you gave me, I looked at my own self and what I went through as a child. “Dust to Dust, Ashes to Ashes”. I use to hear that when the family I was raised particularly when I was buried alive then re-dug me up. If this had never happened between us I would have never found the people that are now in my life showing me the greatest experience of all….life!!!

I highly doubt that you and I will ever see one another ever again.You have made it quite clear that having anything to do with me is offensive as the smell of a skunk is to smell. In your eyes I was offensive for not having family, or money or being the golden egg of the moment.

I will not apologize for me. I will tell you that I loved you like no other woman I have ever loved. I shared you my past, what I went through. You betrayed that trust , that sacred line of honor by dishonor in your behavior. You have been taught in previous relationships of those that cheated on you, that mistreated you. That is what you perceive to be correct. INamaste,

KATHERINE SYMTHE