Defining Moments

February 21^st, 2012:

I released HOPES DREAM after I had many requests for my new poetry. I have not felt inspired to write since you left me. Why should I write when I am dying, inside my soul? I feel dead! What did I do wrong? I never meant to scare you because of what I went through. I wrote this poem to reach you because you always loved my poetry and how it touched your soul. I remember the day I asked you when you realized you were in love with me and you said that second night when I read you poetry.

You said,

“If you can write such deep and passionate poetry, this woman

must love deeply. I fell in love with you because of your passion.”

Danielle, I wish you would reach out and talk to me. I sent you a picture of the sunrise I saw when I got off work today. I thought of you and the beauty that you have. How can you just walk away from me? What did I do wrong? You have not responded to my phone calls or text messages. It’s just so odd. After all that you and I have been through now you treat me this way.

I cannot shake this sadness that is in my heart. My crew grows concerned saying that I am not responding to anything in the restaurant. All I say is,

“Don’t you know that I am the stupid bitch and no

wonder my love walked away.”

I want this sadness to be gone. This is not me. I am tired of being sad. Once I loved life and now I see only the sadness in it.

Why did you throw me away? I keep replaying your words in my head when you said that you needed to simplify your life and I had to be the one sacrificed. What did I do wrong? It’s like that you don’t want to know me. You promised you would love me and even took vows with me. I know you keep saying that you just need time and space and to have hope. I would be the first woman that you date. I must believe that what you said is true. Just know that I am dying inside and nothing feels good anymore.