Defining Moments

February 2, 2012:

It has been two days since Tuesday. I do not know if you will ever read this journal. However as you said on Tuesday there is always hope.

Today at 7:30am I will send you a text message so that you know that I am here for you.

It will read:

“Hello my friend! How are you? How is work? You will have a great day and a great event. I am here for you if you need anything. Would love to hear from you on how you are doing and love and have a great day.”

I hope that you respond to the text message. I do know that you know that I am here. I will always honor you. I just hope that you never forget me and know I will always be in love with you and love you. I may fall down however I will always get up just for you.

7:30am:

I sent the text. I do not expect you to text me back. Only know that I am here. I feel your pain in the decision that you did. I have been an emotional wreck for the past 48 hours. This too shall pass. I know you said to give you time and space. But I wanted you to know I am here. Just remember that I know your heart. However to ignore me completely and forget about us is wrong.

Well its 9am and you have not responded.

11:30am:

You always said that I could feel you. The reality is that I have known for a month that you wanted out. I just thought I could help you with a different route. Today I have been feeling your sense of sadness. I sense also that there is a part of you that if you could, you could ignore us. I sense that you wished we were never together. I do not understand why I sense this, I just do.

4:50 pm:

I apologize that you are hurting. I feel you so strongly. It’s like you wish this never happened. A coping mechanism I never meant for you to be confused. I hope that you’re having a great day. I miss you and I know it’s only been two days. However it’s been a difficult two days. I have never cried in my life as I have over the ending of our relationship even though you said you only need time and space.