Defining Moments

Thursday February 9^th, 2012:

It is 2:30am of the morning of February 9^th. You talked to me last night via text for almost two hours. I was so happy. It has been so hard. Your text was the greatest joy. I saved your texts to my g-mail so that when you return you will see that I kept my promise that I have not been with any other woman and that I only thought of you and me and us like we discussed.

I am glad that you are sending your children to the program. I am copying the texts into my journal to you.
Danielle:

We are okay. I have the children in a study for adolescent with a parent with drug or alcohol problems. How they think and process information.

Kat:

Are you okay with that?

Danielle:

Kina lost her phone for stealing. These guys are not making good decisions

I remember walking around the apartment complex as we were texting one another. I knew that if I could just show Danielle that if I was there we could be together as a family. There would be no issues with Kina, her daughter.

The text messages continue.

Kat:

I hope the program helps. How are you dealing?

Danielle:

I am alright. I am making it…Barely…but my head is above water.

Kat:

I hope you have a great event

Danielle:

It was crazy! As always

Kat:

My love for you will live on in ON HALLOWED GROUND.

Danielle:

Been looking forward to reading it. Sleep has never been a problem for me. Really it’s sleeping too much

There were two more hours of text messages that we had shared with one another. I know now there is hope. I literally cried, falling to the ground as I saw the text that you were barely making it. It confirms my beloved that we are so connected as you said we were. THERE is hope and you will return to me. IF I have to wait 8 years for your children to be raised then I will wait. IT was just like you said that day you broke up with me. You were sitting on the couch and looked at me saying,

“Yes I love you and am in love with you. This will be a

test of how we will survive. “

I remember sighing thinking oh sweet Virgin Mary, one more damn test however I can do this. If I was able to survive years of torture, I can wait for the woman I love and who loves me.

You are so right. I am ready for this test my dearest Danielle. If I have to re romance you I will. It will be my pleasure to do it with you.

The sun has risen and many hours have passed and it’s so difficult. I feel empty.