I hope that your daughter had a great 16th birthday. I remember the night we were making love and you said that you wish that you could have my child with me. Oh lord what have I done. I should have kept quiet. No one wants to know I was a survivor. Why do I fight when I know I will be the loser? I guess only the good guys win. Perhaps in the next life I might know what family is. I am drinking a whole bottle of Tequila Rose. I wish that you were here however why would you be here? I failed you. Go ahead and laugh because no one else cares.