Defining Moments

Final Closure, October 17, 2013
Today is October 17, 2013. A long journey to closure and self discovery. Its only appropriate that I bring a final closure with a final letter. The closure is for me.

Dear Danielle,

Two years has passed since I first met you. Almost a year has passed since we were in a loving relationship. In the memoir I wrote what I thought was a final letter to you filled with anger, shame and embrassement of what was done. I consider writing sacred especially when written to another person. In my eyes it’s a form of soul speak. In my healing processs, I decide to write you one last letter of closure speaking my true authentic voice, heart and soul. After this letter is written I shall of think of you no more. I let you go on the physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, and soulful level. I know you will never read this memoir or this letter. I have spenat over 100 hours in the rewriting process. This letter is for my own peace of mind and closure which you denied a year ago.

I wrote this memoir to write my voice, my experience, our experience with true love and the loss thererof leading to the process of sorrow and healing. When you left me, you devastated me and broke my heart. The worst part was that you never told me ttthe tttruthhh evvveeen ttto this day. Instaed I had to find out through your new girlfriend. She made it seem like I was the only one in love. You even told her that we were not a perfect match. The more research I did, more of your truths told to me became lies.

We both know the truth as well as my friends. You accepted the rings, the car and the computer and told others how much that you loved me. Then you had the audacity to never turn the car into your name. A car that I gave you. Everything you did in your lack of communication was disrespectful and dishonorable.

Now that I have pointed out the facts, let me share something from my heart. Thank you for the time that we had together. You awakened me sexually teaching me that I can love and that I can be loved in return.Thank you for breaking my heart for it was the catalyst to my healing journey. I do not thank you out of sarcasm however a genuine heart.

I have met new friends, and new experiences because of this. I truly am alive today and feel every once of celebration. No, not because I am trying to please you like I did when we were together. Because today I stand on my own two feet of my own accord.

The past is done. The answers to why doesn’t exist. We think that on our journey that there has to be a why to events. The truth is the experience. I hope that my experience can touch anothers life so that they know they are not alone. I have learned a lot about my soul and spirit. A learning process that shall continue for the rest of my life. My true friends mentoring me has been so invaluable.

I am unique and a woman of value. Really in ways I wouldn’t be here today on this journey had it not been for your devastation. A reason for every season. Some people lack an understanding of my journey. They fill themselves with misconceptions not understanding the inside journey. That is okay. I am here to help others for I am a living testimony of spirit, strength, and faith.

Travel you may with your own justifications, needs and desires as you bend your own words to your own statisfaction. Know that one day your actions and your words will unveil the lies of your truth be it in this life or the next. I hold no contempt towards you. I hold the love of a past you. Not romatic love however a place of memory and experience. It is a shame that you never fulfilled your journey. I am glad that you didn’t because your secrets would have destroyed us both.

May you have a successful life and find that which you are searching for.

Namaste,

Katherine Svoi Symthe.

10.17.2013